FRUSTRATION

When it comes to event organizing, I would offer myself to spearhead it in a heartbeat. Truth be told, I just love organizing. It's a good job and it makes me happy. But to do EVERYTHING on my own? WITHOUT HELP? Well, that is a bit abusive. Yeah, like chains and whips kind-of-thing. And no, it don't excite me. 

I have been working on this party as soon as board exam was over. Hell, I am more than ecstatic to head it with one of my friends. We worked on a theme, then planned, delegated and organized. It was fun as the excitement of seeing high school friends kept me in a bundle of warm love. However, as the event neared and we started to collect payments, that's when things went sour. A lot of people  refused to reply to text messages and PMs in Facebook. We have to haunt them down and beg them to pay so we could finalize our party plans and start already. After the issue with money, here comes another: costume. Some, if not MOST were adamant about going all sailor-y (our theme was nautical). Some never did try! *BAD VIBES* It makes me boil inside how they could easily shrug off the party like it's nothing when I and THE REST OF THE TEAM worked our asses just to pull this off! The least they could do is look and play the part. That's not even hard. 

Now, only about three people worked on the decorations. Needless to say I was one of them. I am so pissed off right now that I swear I would never EVER do this again. Let them plan a party like this. I give up for future gatherings. 

I know reading this will give you clues that I am frustrated. But that's an understatement.

Gotta go and let off steam.


XO,
Miss E


P.S.
I have 3 anchors left to decorate. Souvenir fans to print. Party bags to buy. Aaaand a teacher to invite. BLESS MY SOUL.

UNPUBLISHED MAGAZINE

Has there been moments in life that try as you might, you can hardly remember? Well, I can totally resonate. Take these "magazine" pages I supposedly made over a year ago. As I was cleaning my files (my Drive C is almost full!), I stumbled upon this folder I named, "College Mag". And I was surprised for what was in store. Take a peek!

Apparently I'm in the cover. I made one of my wishes come true. Ha ha! Yeah, the perks of being your own boss!

Funny how reading these captions seem too foreign to me. I feel like I'm stalking another person and not myself! I can't remember ever writing this!!!!!!!! T____T

But I do remember creating this up. And what I a shame I did not finish this project 'til the end.

What's just bothering me is the way I have written this. My writing flaws are glaringly clear to me now. I have missed out on putting punctuation marks here and there. The sentence construction is not even grammatically correct. Tch!

However, I enjoy reading it. It's so inspiring to get to know your younger self. Okay, minus the awkward poses and weird smiles, it's all good. At least I know better now.

The message here is that, I just miss my friends. 

And all the fun we had in college. God, I cannot forget starting college! IT WAS A BLAST! :)

So I'll try to make chapters 2nd, 3rd and 4th year college in the coming days. I really hope I could pull this project off. This will be a great treat to my "older" self in the future. 

Anyway, tomorrow 'til Saturday of this week, my hands will be full with party preparations. My good friend, Michael and I are organizing our High school Reunion (a first in 5 years!). We still have lots to attend to, like party decorations, souvenirs, games and etc. I wish I could finish all my tasks tomorrow so I could enjoy watching the Royal Wedding of the Century. Like most girls, I am way too excited for that!

On another note, my writing stint is over. We just quit. 

Sending all my love from me to you straight from the Philippines! *muuuah*

XO,

Miss E

OF SEWING MACHINES AND INDECISIONS

WHICH IS WHICH?
TO THE LEFT OR TO THE RIGHT?

I made my dad promise that he'll get me a sewing machine. And he did! Wooooot! So now I'm back to my old indecisive self, and can't make up my mind which among the two to get. I'm not well-versed with sewing machines so in the off-chance that you stumbled upon my humble blog, please do shed some light. I would definitely appreciate that. Really. Thanks! 

XO,

Miss E

HAIR BOW

So excited to show what I've been up to this day! Well, here it is! 

Isn't it the cuuuuuuuutest?

I chanced upon this YouTube video tutorial and boy, was I hooked! I've been seeing girls sport this 'do and I have wondered how to make it. But thanks to that girl, I made it happen. Yippeeeee! I know it looks a little bit messy and rough on the edges. Yeah, it  definitely needs improvement but for my first time, I am way too ecstatic to care. 

And this is one of my sisters. Lovely, isn't she? Anyway, if you're interested to make a bow out of your hair, then I suggest you follow this tutorial. It's very easy and looks so pretty too. 

Well, this will just be it for now. See you 'til next post! Advance happy easter everyone!

XO,

Miss E

LENT

A TASTY DELIGHT APT FOR THE HOLY WEEK

It's a strong Filipino tradition to lay off meat during the Lenten season. Even more so when it's Maundy Thursday and Good Friday. And my family is no exception. We are practically living off this specialty - BINIGNIT. I love it and can't stop myself from filling a bowl to its brim! *burp* Excuse me. 

Aside from fasting, let's spend this time to reflect and remember that a Man so great died for us in the cross. We may forget about this every so often due to our extremely insane schedules and all the hustle-bustle that is our lives. Now more than ever is the perfect time to turn to our Lord and offer our deepest prayers.

Have a glorious week to one and all. 

XO,

Miss E

INFECT ME WITH YOUR LOVE

Hello! 

I'm now 4 days and twenty-two years old. Still too young, eh? Ha ha ha! :) There's pretty much nothing new with me. I'm still on my INTERNET-SLEEP-WAKE cycle and I'm getting bored as hell. My writing stint is still on but we're waiting for an email from our new employer. He has to comment on every single piece of work before he can release new topics. So my fingers are having their days off from keyboard. Aaaah.. heaven! Last time I wrote 20 articles in less than 2 days. My fingers were going on an overdrive! But I had to deliver. *sigh*

Anyway, due to this cosmic boredom, I decided to tinker with my camera and bribed my sister to cooperate. Glad that a promise of chocolate bar and ice cream did the trick! :D

BELT, SHORTS & BAG - THRIFTED || BLACK CLOGS & SHEER PALE PINK TOP - WHOLESALE-DRESS.NET ||
TURBAN - DIY||

If anybody asks what man's greatest invention is, I'd say Internet. I've learned so much off the web - from things to people (I refuse to admit it's what you call "stalking"). I am a complete and utter slave of it! This blog is a testament of my newfound well of knowledge. I started blogger with zero idea how to go about it. Thanks to Google, I've sorta leveled up albeit little. But at least it's a big improvement from when I began. :) :) :)

BUCKET BAG - GIFTED BY NYMA

However, there are things I would like to learn from a master himself. Just like Photography. I read the Nikon Manual but I could only understand so much. Plus, my lens are working under Manual Focusing ONLY so that presents a bit of a problem. An auto-focusing would have made my life easier. Waaaay easier!

Hype in lookbook.nu here and chictopia here. Thank you so much!

XO,

Miss E

BIRTHDAY BLOW-OUT

Hello, everyone! 

I just got home from a fun night with the girls (and oh, with my friend's boyfriend as well). We decided to meet up at 6:00pm at Yellow Cab LKK but all of them (save for Chieney) were running late - on a day when I was incredibly on the dot for the first time in my life. Just. My. Luck. Before you fret, secretly I was not fuming with rage nor bombarding them with impatient texts. Because I knew they were on to something - GIFT-HUNTING! So I had to kill the time taking silly pictures of worthwhile subjects a.k.a. me, myself and I.

At about an hour passed and they arrived singing "Happy Birthday" song in chorus. I was a bit embarrassed but in my heart of hearts, I've never felt more special. Just a random fact about me: I've never celebrated birthdays like normal kids as it falls on a summer holiday. That's the reason why I have never been sung a Birthday song in public. And I think I missed out on such pivotal rite of passage. For a child at least. :p

However, on my 3rd year in college our summer class began early and I got my longtime dream alright. An entire class of over 40 people sang to me. I never knew it could be THAT mortifying but pleasing all the same. The adage, "Be careful what you wish for" hit me squarely. Another lesson learned.

1ST PHOTO: IRIANE, NIKKI, JESSA & DONIE
2ND PHOTO: CHIENEY, MOI & JERIKA
MIA: IA

Anyway, as soon as my friends arrived,  we immediately got settled and ordered 18" Manhattan Meatlovers pizza (square-cut), 1.5L of Coke and baked potato wedges for us to share.

The food were served a bit longer so we whiled the time away with more gossip.

MEET BEAUTIFUL IA - FONDLY TEASED AS SOLENN HEUSSAFF AND BANGS GARCIA'S LOOK-ALIKE

CELEBRITY BFF JESSA WITH THE BOYFRIEND
CLAIM TO FAME: TOP 5 IN DEC NLE

PRETTY IRIANE AS SOON-TO-BE DR. TAGAPULOT
GOD BLESS YOU IN MED SCHOOL, YANI!

THEN THERE'S ME, FAMOUS IN MY OWN WORLD AND IN THE LOOK-OUT FOR MR. RIGHT

From the above photos I have already introduced you to some of the beautiful people that are my friends. Nikki, Jerika and Chieney were not in the photos above but that does not mean I love them any less. You will get to see them later.

I just decided to put their photos up.  But couldn't find one with a flattering photo of Jerika. I'm sooooo sorry Jer! You know I love you, right? :)))

MEET MY PEG IN TALENT, INTELLIGENCE AND LIFE. RACHIENE A.K.A. CHIENEY

MEET THE QUIRKY AND VOCAL NIKKI. 
I JUST HAD TO BE AT THE BACK CONTEMPLATING ON WHAT TO ORDER. 

It was lovely to bond with our common past as well move forward with the present changes in our lives. Boy, there were a lot. I thought we had spent it all in one chikka session but no, when the pizza was served, I found myself babbling endlessly, my food almost untouched. True story. *wink*

After dinner, I opened my gift and was so happy for what they got me! I instantly fell in love with the striped black & white ensemble. My friends are hesitant in giving me presents because to them my taste in fashion is bipolar and they might choose something that would never see the light of day. So they thought I was feigning interest but honestly with all of my heart, I ADORE THE LOVELY LOVELY SKIRT! You would know what I'm talking about down below.

STRIPED BLACK & WHITE SKIRT | LIBERTE | ROBINSONS | GIFTED
PALE PINK SHEER TOP | WHOLESALE-DRESS.NET | BORROWED FROM SIS

Thank you girls so much! Now I need not worry on scouting a costume for our HS Class Reunion happening on the 30th. With this, I have the perfect Nautical-inspired outfit in mind. Just need to design a top to go with it. Preferably a sheer backless number. Oh, so exciteeeeeed! I can hardly wait to wear it and strut for the world to see! *smiles*

L: WITH CHIENEY R: WITH JESSA

Capped the night off with good music at Wilsbar. Oh, another random fact about me, I love to sing... BUT only in the confines of my home. I can't carry a tune to save my life. Although when I'm in my room or in the shower, I can blast every beat like no one's within hearing range. However, around friends in a videoke bar, I lose my nerve. I am way too shy. Or just overly sensitive for my friends' ears. :p

EVERYBODY ON THE BARE STREET
MISSING-IN-ACTION: IA AND LILY (HOW DARE YOU MISS THIS LI?)

Before heading home, Chieney (the soon-to-be-lawyer) and I discussed our life affairs, things trending in Twitter, celebrity feuds, love lost and lifelong ambitions over McDonald's McFlurry and baked potato wedges (that I intended to bring home). We used to do this a lot way back in high school. We'd stall a few minutes to hours while waiting for jeepneys en route to our respective houses. We would just sit there under the shade of a tree talking alternately about serious and mundane topics.

 Chieney is always my go-to when it comes to heart-to-heart or just nonsense gossiping about our common friends. If you're reading this Chin, know that I terribly missed those days. But I marvel at the fact that we can still do that even up to now. We may fall in and out of each other's lives now and then but when we're together, it seems like no time has passed. I love it that way. If I can't bring back the past, this is a good enough bargain. Is it too selfish of me to wish that it will be that way forever? *sad puppy-dog eyes*

Let me just say that I love you my dearest friends! Thank you for your prayers and heart-warming wishes (It's supposed to be serious but the love life and Mr.Right thing cracked me up! Who wouldn't when ALL of you begged the Lord for a man to come into my life. ha ha ha!). 

To more nights such as this! Yeah! Anyway, Ta ta for now. Got to go and rest my eyes. Sweet dreams!

XO,

Miss E


DISCLAIMER : Photos taken either by me, Ia and Jerika. Photo-processing made by yours truly.

THANK YOUs

It's that time of the year when my FACEBOOK WALL, TWITTER PAGE and mobile phone is at its busiest. Family, friends, loved ones, acquaintances and even strangers came to scribble, tweet or text their well-wishes, professions of love, astounding compliments, constant pestering for bribes (as if turning a new age would make money magically appear out of thin air!)or just to wish me a blessed, enchanting and a happy happy birthday. 

Indeed, this day of the year is one of my happiest thus far, more so with each of your heart-warming, funny and lovely messages. Like I said, hearts may grow weary but never old. I may have turned the big two-two but I still feel young through and through.

Last night marked the end of 21 blissful years. I'm on to another year of making my dreams happen, changing myself for the better and just plain hitting it big with anything and everything. Thank you for journeying with me miloves, miladies, my darlings! I couldn't thank you all enough. 

XO,

Miss E the newly-turned 22-year-old nurse from Philippines

 P.S. I couldn't care less if you forgot but if you're one of my so-called friends, then you're in for a major major major cold war. Better deliver your greeting with a gift. :p

P.S. I LOVE YOU

It's actually been ages since I curled up with a good book. I saw this lying around the house and I thought, why not? I've loved the movie and I can't imagine how good the written word would be. I'm still on the 171/470 page. So far, so good. It's just a bit dragging sometimes. Or maybe I'm just easily bored these days? I hope not.

Well, I better be off! I see my friend's name popping in FB chat. Yeah, being all famous is putting a strain on me. Haaaa! 

OH BTW, it's hardly two nights to go before my big day! Turning the big two-two on the 10th of April! How does that sound? I'm soon-to-be twenty-something job-seeking, without-a-candy-man and down-with-rotten-luck gal. Whoa. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME. 

But let's turn that frown alright! Positive vibes all the way! Good night folks! :) :) :)

XO,

Miss E

THERE SHE GOES WEEPING

She stares at it for a long time, her heart bursting at the seams with pain. Why must it feel this way, she wonders. Heaving a sigh, she takes her eyes off it and realizes, moving on is easier said than done.

XO,

Miss E

JUST SAYING

Warning: Heavy emotional content below. Read at your own risk.

           

It’s not strange for me to feel highly nostalgic and emotional when riding a public transportation. There’s something soothing when memories flash in my head and my life takes center stage for my viewing. It is often my time to recollect what has transpired lately in my life, to weigh options when I’m about to make a major decision or to think about friends I’ve lost and missed.  In most of my reminiscence, the one that I always play on rewind is those affairs of my heart.

Like most young adults at the peak of their maturity, I too am obsessing over finding, as cliché and as corny as it sounds, my “Other Half”. I have been through all emotional hurdles of adolescent love in high school and in college. I am way past that. I guess I deserve to feel the real thing.

I have always been on the receiving end of unrequited love. I never got there. Somehow, it just wasn’t for me. I wonder if this is God’s way of telling me that I’m not cut out for love. That maybe another love is set for me… one that does not involve romance with the opposite sex but a divine relationship with the Father in Heaven. I shudder to think that’s the case. I’m not a hypocrite to say I didn’t envision a life with a doting husband, cute kids and a 3-storey house with ginormous swimming pool, picturesque garden and let’s not forget the white picket fence, shall we? Yes, I truly did not just imagine that as I write this. It is a product of long wishful thinking’s, dreaming on stars each night and daily prayers that my soul mate shall reach me at last. But twenty years passed and still no one came close to my fantasy

I try to maintain my composure. I tell myself it’s okay. I will live that dream no matter how long it takes. But to be honest, it’s wearing me down. It’s exhausting to get my hopes up and come crashing down with depression the next. Falling in love is not the hardest thing for me to do. In fact, when a guy displays kindness, breaks into a warm smile and treats me like a real gentleman, my heart melts over. And in the next instant, I am drawn to him like a moth to a flame. Then the cycle of unrequited love begins. It’s all the same. I like him way too much for my (and his) own good. Then I despise him for not returning my affections and soon will forget about him like nothing’s happened. I am not one who chases guys out once I know it’s not the wisest choice there is. I am left to bleed ‘til I am healed enough to block the pain. But this does not happen all the time. Often I am left in the sidelines, admiring from afar and keeping my true emotions in check. No one really knows the emotional turmoil I’ve dug myself in. I’m not one who gossips about it, afraid that I might jinx it or just plain embarrassed of my infatuation. But for those few who do know, I honestly still reserve a part of the story to myself. It’s in a place where I alone can bask in the loneliness or otherwise.

I know I’m still young, and many a chap will conquer my heart but sometimes my unattached status just hurts like hell.

XO,

Miss E

WHY, HELLO SUMMER!

March, April, May = SUMMER SUNSHINE! 

Hey, everyone! Did you miss me and my posts? *laughs* I know, I know, you're thinking, "Who reads this anyway?" But whatever. I don't mind at all. 

Anyway, Summer has breached the Philippine threshold once again! The clouds and rain had given way for blazing sunshine and perfect humidity. 

Kicked Summer in with a splash with my best girl buds. Jessa, Ia, Nikki and I spent the day on a rough start (we went to Koresco Hotel only to be informed that in-house guests are the ONLY ones allowed to access their pools. booo! major boo!). But that did not dampen our spirit! Hailed a cab and went off to Marco Hotel. It was the best decision we had. Just look at all the lovely scenery in the heart of the city. Who knew something like this was hiding from view? 

I'm not that overly confident with my body just yet. I know I have a lot of adipose tissues to shed but I just can't pass this opportunity for a dip in the water.

My friends looked utterly smashing in their bikinis and I hope I would be soon. I'm banking on the end of the summer. Fats, please melt on me now! Haaa!

Although there were only four of us (a number of friends did not make it) It was crazy fun while it lasted! My sunburnt skin was all worth it. I'm expecting to get more in tune with the water and with the waves in the future. I'm eyeing on a beach trip soon. But first, I must get that beach bum bod to die for! I hope all these slimming plans will push through. *crossing my fingers*

On another note, I know it's premature to say and you might not believe it, but I HAVE AGONIZINGLY BUT SURELY HAVE MOVED ON. These past few days were rough. I had bouts of insomnia attacks as I try to forcefully forget all the pain that *ehem* unrequited love has caused me. I was haunted by memories and "What Ifs". Several friends rushed to my aid and I couldn't be more grateful for their listening ears and sympathy. I ♥ my girlfriends and best boy bud! Thank you guys!

I have come to realize that all that is happening to me is in the course of God's perfect plan. Someday, I would live my dream of being loved nothing but for me - without hesitation and without qualms. I look forward to that. 

Summer fling, anyone? Haaa! But seriously, yeah, I'm going to take everything as it is. Gaaawd, I deserve a pat on the back for overcoming this emotional turmoil and coming out strong. *rolls eyeballs*

Whew! That was a bit heavy but rest assured, waterworks were not involved. All my tears are reserved for something worth crying for. This is all part and parcel of learning to let go and telling myself, it's okay. What's essential is that I have learned my lesson and will take that's happened as part of life. Just as I have forgiven him for leading me on, I, too, have forgiven myself for expecting way too much and blowing things out of proportion. I'm still trying to forget the terrible losses and cutting down this unwanted weight as well!

*coughs* I DON'T THINK I'M OBSESSED WITH LOSING WEIGHT. Yeah, I don't think so.  

Anyway, this will just be it for now. I'm off to watch Barbie in a Mermaid Tale with my 11-year-old sibling. Yes, she's an addict like that. Where's Puberty when you need one? Please come strike on my sister soon! Haaa!

XO,

Miss E

DISCLAIMER: Credits to Ia Darunday, Jessa Andalan and Nikki Pacatan for the photos.

All edits made by yours truly.